Walking Through Streets Of Life

Hey Folks,

Today, after a nice long (2hr) walk with my hubby talking about different facets of our lives, I just felt like I should write something so here it is: life is amazing even in the most mundane aspects of it. The fact that we’re here, breathing, controlling most of our body by sheer will all through electrical impulses, growing every day in some way, never mind all the unique talents and traits we each have, the list goes on… is all amazing. Many people do not look at the ‘minor’ things, or take notice of how God interacts in our everyday lives, but I am one of those people who is all about the details. Sometimes too much detail for my own good mind you, but still, that’s how I was designed, and it was for a purpose. It doesn’t matter what anyone else tells you with regards to the special traits you possess, so long as God knows you’re doing your best to use those traits for good, that’s what matters. I learned this the hard way, but I guess that’s the only way I would ever have learned it.

You see, I was pretty stubborn as a kid, but I can say that God knew better and so allowed me to experience many hardships throughout childhood and beyond in order for me to come to the realization that I was spoiled, I didn’t appreciate what I had, didn’t even realize what I had I guess at one point, until my family hit rock bottom. It was rough, and don’t get me wrong, I hated it, and despised myself for many years afterwards because I felt so ashamed of my life. I was depressed, and that lead to me hurting myself and others in different ways, mostly subtle, but in the end, God knew that it would all work for my own good, so He allowed it. And I’m thankful for that, because now that I’m a parent, I can relate to the feeling of wanting my own children to appreciate what they have, and who they have in their lives, including God. And it would be so easy to continue to spoil them, sheerly out of the desire to show them love, but there is something to be said as well for tough love. As when you know that someone does not appreciate what they have, they need to experience a time of less – not to deprive, but to take note of all that they already have/who is in their lives, and to realize that they have much to be thankful for. Especially in this era we live in, at least in North America, where we have so much, so easily available to us, even those of us who are part of the ‘working poor’, we have SO much. How much do you need to live? Well, coming down to basics, we need to stay hydrated, and we need rest, and nutrients of some sort, and medical care when necessary, as well as shelter/clothing to keep us warm and safe. The rest is gravy really, but you would never say that to someone in our society, they would call you crazy. But really, TV’s, computers, furniture, cars, fancy clothing and devices, games, videos, etc., they are all extras. Sure, in our part of the world, we thrive on living online, using computers in pretty much every industry we have, but isn’t that a dangerous thing? Think about it – if anything was to happen to our electronics or internet, we’d all be in the dark – literally. We probably don’t have much skills to keep going, short of any possible camping skills we may have, or special training, but for many people, when the power goes out, they panic. It’s inevitable when your whole society is used to living off the latest technology. Anyways, where I’m going with this is, I have realized throughout my years of having less than everyone around me, that life will go on if I don’t have everything that everyone else has. That is because God knows what I need, and those things quite honestly, I don’t need. He may decide to bless me here and there with something extra special, (which He does), but He is more concerned about my walk with Him than showering me with the latest trendy stuff. As the responsible Father that He is, He allows me to struggle with some things for a while, usually until I realize that I can’t do it without Him, then He comes alongside of me and holds my hand. And THAT my friend is all the reminder that I need to know that I am blessed. Amen.

~Roxy~

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I’m Not Alone

Today marks one year from the day that I went in for day surgery to clean out my body after having a miscarriage. Today last year I had to say goodbye to a baby I never met in person, but whom I carried for almost 3 months in my womb. Today I am sad, yet joyful that God made the decision He did as He knew that in this point in time we would not have the finances to care for another child, and that perhaps other issues would be at play. I miss our little one, but I am reminded that God Loves all of us, and His Ways are not mine, and His Plans are not my own, and that He does know best. It was a long road of depression to get to the place I am at now, and yes, I still grieve just not so often and the pain is not so intense as I know where my child is. And he or she is in Good Hands – God’s Hands. So in all this, I am reminded that I am not alone.

If anyone reading this has recently miscarried, know this, that God Loves your child too, and he or she is in a better place. By all means, as much you love your child, we need to also realize, that no matter how much it hurts that we cannot see our little ones right now, that God is taking good care of them in Heaven. And Heaven is the best place to be – hey, it’s where I want to be – and it doesn’t get better than that! In Heaven, there is no pain, no sadness, no hurt, no hunger, no sin, no fears, just love. LOVE. Imagine that. Just love. I can’t wait!!

I am reminded that God’s Love is all encompassing so much so that even in the midst of my despair, He is there, and He is changing me from the inside out, where it counts. I don’t need to carry all my hurts anymore, because I am a new creation in Christ. There IS hope, no matter what anyone else thinks, because He Is God. Amen.

May God comfort all those who are hurting right now, and may He show you the joy and hope that He has in store for you.

Love,

Roxy

Easter Weekend

Happy Easter everyone!

I was in a crafty mood so I suggested that the boys make some crafts for Easter, but before we did all this, I made sure to read them “The Easter Story”, which tells about Jesus’s time just before his death on the cross, and all the steps up to Easter Sunday. There is so much joy in sharing the Gospel with them and feeling their own wonderment at Jesus’s love for them. And hearing them sing God songs when I wake up in the morning, and they are playing makes me feel so happy. It really is music to my ears.

Well, this Easter, our boys decided to do different things – my youngest decided to colour a picture from Sunday school and to make a sign using stickers and writing, “Happy Easter”.

He is Risen

My older son decided to use an egg carton and some Kinder Surprise eggs to make little egg people of our family and one of his friends. They turned out so cute!

Easter egg peopleI love crafts! And in case you’re wondering, yes, I’m like a big kid! So I get just as much enjoyment doing this stuff as they do. I have another idea of something to make for Easter, we’ll see if I get around to doing them, but in the mean time I have some baking to do!

Today we went to Good Friday service at our church, Riverwood Church, and it was very special to sit there with our oldest child and really reflect on the meaning behind today. There are so many significances to what happened in Jesus’s life, and throughout Easter, but we are just scratching the surface of what really happened. We do know that what Christ did for us on that cross was no easy matter. Even though he was God and man combined, he chose to take the ultimate wrath from His Father God, all for our sakes, that we might not have to be disciplined for our sins. And boy am I thankful He did. Try to think of how you react when someone treats you badly or doesn’t listen to you – does it make you want to bless them or be mean? I know that I have trying times, and it’s those times when I choose to obey God and show love instead of anger, that I know He smiles down upon me. It’s all too easy to react in anger, but to show grace as He has shown us… wow. Only through His Holy Spirit am I able to walk in His Ways. There are just so many things my heart is feeling today, but His Love is at the top of the list. Even though times are tough, and I don’t know what lies ahead, I can rest in the knowledge that my Father in Heaven is watching out for us, and I need not worry. When doubt creeps in, as it has these past couple of weeks, I must remember that He is here. Blessed are we, who believe in the Lord Jesus!

May you all have a wonderful Easter weekend, and I pray that God will reveal Himself to you in a very powerful way. God Bless you!

Love,

Roxy

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Voice of the Martyrs (VOM Canada)

This morning as I was reading through one of my Voice of the Martyrs magazines, (which my hubby and I subscribe to in order to stay in touch with what’s happening to Christians around the world), I felt led to share this with all of my Brothers and Sisters in Christ. It seems to me that in North America anyway, many of us are unaware of the terrors that are taking place elsewhere – especially with the Body of Christ, and that is disturbing. Considering that we are called to pray for all those who are persecuted, how can we do this if we do not know about them? Yes, we hear of news stories here and there, but for the most part, with the media, they only show whatever is approved by those in charge. We do not hear about all the Christians who are threatened on a daily basis, sometimes beaten, tortured, imprisoned for years on end, and basically stripped of everything they have. I think as Christians we need to be aware of what is happening in the world or else how can we help those who are helpless? Believe me, I’m in just as much of a bubble as anyone else, so this message is for me too. Sometimes I think we are too preoccupied with all of the day-to-day stuff, that we cannot look past ourselves, so it can be a challenge to even remember to pray for others, but we must. There is so much despair in this world as it is, and as followers of Christ, we need to reach out to our brethren so that they can continue to spread the Word of God, support their families, and stay strong throughout their trials. I know we each face our own problems, that is true, however, how many of us can actually say we’ve faced threats of imprisonment or death for our faith? Not too many I imagine. And that makes me thankful, both for our safety, but also for the boldness that others have shown in the face of danger. To keep one’s eye on the Lord throughout persecution takes faith and strength and courage. And I know that every letter people write to the persecuted, every prayer, and every donation to VOM is appreciated and felt by those in trouble. That is why it is crucial that we make a stand for Christ by standing with those in danger. We are not to renounce our faith in Christ, no matter the circumstance, and I am encouraged when I see that Christ prevails in all these situations, as God’s Word truly cannot be chained. It is alive and will continue to make a difference in the world. Now let us do our part.

There are many ministries you can help out with, but why not check out this website and find out how you can help fellow Christians – there are many ways, and every bit helps. Why not take a few minutes to pray today for those in trouble, and send them some love?

Blessings,

Roxy

The Season of Giving

Hi Readers,

Today I went out to my local thrift store and donated some clothes, a few odds and ends and an extra Christmas tree which we were not using, and I thought someone could make good use of this time of year. I went to the MCC Thrift Store on Watt, a place I truly admire as they are completely volunteer run, and their prices are true thrift shop pricing. And all funds raised go to help those in need, not to line their pockets (something that other well-known thrift stores do). Every time I donate something, whether it’s big or small, I feel good knowing that someone in the community will be able to put it to good use, and they won’t have to spend their last penny buying it. I’ve been in dire straights in the past, so I know what it’s like, but really, how hard is it to take a quick look through our things and give away all that we have lying around? There are so many people in need, people we see everyday when dropping off our kids at school, going to the office, or grocery shopping, and these people are truly hurting. And to top it all off, a lot of people are hurting even more because they don’t have anyone to fall back on. No one is there to help carry their load when they get sick or injured, or just need some love. No one, except God that is, who many people do not even acknowledge or are aware that He’s real. I have come to realize that whenever we’re in need, the Lord comes through for us. And this is the time of year when things get even more tight budget-wise, so it’s nice to know we have our Creator looking out for us. I try to remember to pray often, not that He needs us to tell Him what we need, but even just to remind myself that He Provides. There is truly nothing more amazing than knowing His Love, and what better time of year to walk in this truth, than at Christmas? The time of year where we reflect on the birth of Christ, our Saviour, who came into the world that we would have hope. How many people do you know who need hope right now? A miracle? I have a few friends going through cancer treatments right now, who I know need hope, something to hang onto, and I’m praying for them too. And trust me, prayer helps. I hope that you will take the time to give from your heart this season, whether in the form of donations to your local thrift store, or charity, or by helping out a friend through prayer or otherwise. There are so many ways to show God’s Love this season, and any time of year, so God Bless you as you embark on this journey and help to spread love!

Warmest Wishes,

Roxy

Learning to Be Me

Hi,

How is your weekend so far? Mine has been pretty exhausting but in a good way, just happy that things are getting done including kicking my own butt to get in shape again. ;p But that’s for another blog entry… What I want to express today is my sheer thanks to God that I am me, and no one else. Not in a big headed kind of way, (as anyone who knows me can easily vouch for me), I am learning that it’s okay to be myself. May sound silly to many people, as I am an adult and should already have discovered that a long time ago. But unfortunately as happens in many people’s lives, sometimes we let past failures, bad comments, or our own fears control us into thinking we have to just be like everyone else – as in dress like everyone else, do our hair like everyone else, talk like everyone else and like what everyone else likes, when in fact that is so not true. Even as a Mommy blogger, I feel compelled to make my blog look like everyone else’s blog, but I am forcing myself to just make it the way I want to, as I would be giving in to yet more people pleasing. Well, you can follow me along in this adventure of life, as I learn to be myself, and not to rely on my own strength or talents, but to go where the Lord leads me. Yes, it’s true I’m Christian, and I am happy to be so. Do not let me intimidate you, but rather share what I have learned in my walk so far and what I keep learning in my walk with God.

As our pastor pointed out today, we all have failed in many areas, but God has plans for each of us, and we need to keep getting up when we fall. It’s not the falling that should be our focus, as everyone falls at some point, but it should be our getting back up that we should make sure we focus on and asking God for His Strength and Guidance. But I digress, what I want to share with all of you is that indeed, I will not always agree with your choices, and you will not always agree with mine, however, can we agree that when someone makes a statement about something that is important to them, to try to avoid knocking that other person’s opinion? It’s quite easy actually, it’s called listening. I need to work on listening and not interrupting too, so I’m not perfect. But since I have trouble expressing myself without feeling bad about it after, can we agree that we are all different which is fine, and that when someone is doing something that is just a matter of personal style or taste, that we leave our bad comments to ourselves? That’s something I think we can all achieve. Afterall, isn’t the saying, “If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all?” I thought we all learned that in kindergarten or maybe earlier. I’m sure we all teach our kids that, so why can’t we follow through with it? Is it that hard not to say something when you disagree with someone? I mean, unless someone is asking for your opinion, or if something is dangerous in some way, should we not encourage each other to be ourselves and to feel safe expressing our feelings? Should I have to hide my feelings or dress a certain way/act a certain way to gain other’s approval? Or should I feel like I’m less of a person because every time I say something that’s important to me, someone else knocks me down? No. Clearly not, as God does not want us to live in fear, or to pretend to be someone we’re not. I hope at least one person reading this will remember that they are a child of God, who purposely made us each different for His Own Purposes, and that He delights in our uniqueness, not in being anyone else. It is our uniqueness that makes us who we are, and if each of us would feel free to just be ourselves, there would be so much creativity flowing in this world, and beauty. Alas, there will always be critics, which is fine, but please allow for freedom of expression, please do not supress the beauty that is in another individual just because you do not agree with it. I mean, if you’re good at judging others, that is something you need to work on, but please be courteous to others. I am also working on taking the brunt of negativity and rudeness and whatever else the world throws at me, and saying to myself, “Just breathe… do not focus on it, but focus on God’s Truth and Love.” Unforgiveness and hurt can well up inside so easily, especially I think for women as we are really emotional creatures, (my husband can attest to this), and we need to stop and think before we criticize others or ourselves. We need to stop living like robots and start living like the women God made us to be, strong in Christ and free to be individuals in all ways. So as this blog title states, I’m learning to be me, and I’m happy with that decision, so there!
*grins* Now to walk it… please pray for me that I keep remembering this on a daily basis and that I allow myself to do so.

With Love,

Roxy